In the works. Pug Love

So I had a failed painting on friday. Used up a good amount of paint and spent about 6 hours on it before I decided it was hopeless. I hate failed paintings. I think the canvas size was just too small for what I was trying to do. So I built 2 45"x45" canvases. Well I ran out of trim for the second one so only one was complete which I am painting on now. It is big. The idea was to have a person holding a pug. They love pugs so much they look like they're gonna eat it. I know the dog does not look much like pug.

Piano Man

30"x40" oil and acrylic on canvas. I just finished another painting tonight. It is of a man playing piano. It has a mixed emotion which I am loving. THe background is calming while the subject is wild and exciting.
                                                                           

Black Lung

32"x48" oil and acrylic on stretched canvas. I finished the painting last night. So for this work like the last, I did not use a source. I just painted what I wanted from my mind. The subject of this painting started as a self portrait. Once I started the painting with the idea, I just allowed the painting to paint itself. As in I let it tell me what needed to be next. It is the same as when you are composing music, once you have the feeling and key, the song calls for the following notes. So if you look at the painting, you can see 2 faces which expresses how a person has changes in mood, feelings, personality. In this case this would be myself. I also smoke a lot of cigarettes and try not to think about it but am haunted by the thought of how black my lungs are. I will leave it at that as this piece should call for each individuals personal interpretation.

working on another expressionism

32"x48" on canvas. This is what I have been working on. it is pretty big and has eatin a lot of paint. here it is so far.

Expressionism dress form

22"x28" oil and acrylic on canvas. Tonight I decided to be a little more creative and put two objects together. I decided to use my fiance's dress form that has been sitting behind me for a month now giving me a heartattack when I turn around at 4am in the morning. I get that feeling like someone is behind me and turn to realise omg there is someone until I remember its just her dress form. Along with the form I sketched my fiance's head. The sketch was pretty since she is beautiful, but i changed it with the paint as beauty is not the purpose of this painting. here it is. and I will include a side view so you can get an idea of the texture.

Another Nude pose

Here is my fourth in this style. Very bold. 16"x20" acrylic and oil on panel. more on the way.

Second expressionism painting

Here is the second of many. I have to say I just love this painting. I walk in the room and this painting just screams at me. They are very bold and stick out dramatically from my other paintings.

Nude Woman

So for a couple weeks now I have been losing my mind trying to think of a different way to paint. I have been doing scribbles with ink. I have been striving for something more raw. I have been doing realism and impressionism for years now. But they just look like a painting. There isn't to much mentally to painting a scene. It's basically just putting the time in to doing it. So I have basically stopped looking at art and have even turned off the music so that I will not be influenced. I have been losing sleep over this for too many nights. Today I did this painting. It is very raw. Laying in bed at 5 am this morning it finally hit me, I thought of using the raw colors as well which seemed to be a main ingredient. When I finally fell asleep I had nightmares about painting. So today I stared at the subject and finally laid down an oil painting. It sure is different from what I was doing. I love it. It's so raw and visually pleasing. It does remind me of cubism and some other styles I have seen before, but it was not my intention.

Oil sketch nude

So I have been working on transfering sketches to oil paintings. I am mainly trying to get something more raw. Here is one of a nude woman. I basically did a scribble like sketch on canvas and added brushstrokes of oil paint.

More Scribbles

So tonight I work on a couple more scribbles. I did a woman with an umbrella and a man playing the piano. The piano one turned out to be trouble. It just would not look right as I had to do the object and figure. I kept doing too many lines and just was not happy. The umbrella one was actually smooth. I was pleased with it instantly. But the funny thing now is that time has gone by and the piano one looks great to me and the umbrella one seems to have too much. Idk.

Trying something new.

So for a while now I have been frustrated. Too often my mind gets about to where it wants to explode. I need to create something new and it is driving me crazy trying to figure out what. I usually do some impressionism as a release because I do enjoy the raw look, but it just does not seem to be enough. I have been looking at my paintings, and all I see are paintings. Yes some are good, but there is not a big enough difference to others works. I do see a style though. Painting is like handwriting. Same goes for guitarists as I could name any of the guitarists I listen to just from hearing them hit only a few notes. But I just can't get over the need to do something different. I have been trying not to see anyone's artwork as it would influence me in some way. The same always went with music. I wouldn't even listen to a band I really liked if they did not match the sound I was currently playing at the time because it would throw me off. so I bought some ink and watercolors today. I decided I should start actually producing some stuff to help me further ideas. I have always loved raw artworks, same as music. There have been a couple of times when I would do an under layer of a painting and just stop and look at it thinking "wow that looks great, maybe I should just leave it like this" but as it was unfinished and not the plan I would do the rest of the layers and complete the work. I have also been loving the impressions on panel I have been doing. I just love them raw. But I feel the need to push them further.  So anyways, in the simplest explanation, what I have done is decided to take a figure and basically break it down as much as possible. Or... Turn it into scribble. Yes you could say a sketch, but I am trying to break it down more than just a sketch. It needs to be more raw and to the point where you can just make out what it is. But I do not want to too far where it would just be abstract. It is basically controlled scribble I guess you could say. I have struggled with it as I have to fight myself from doing it too much like a sketch. But then I can't just scribble it and say I'm done. I need to carefully plan the scribble and have each scribble right. This probably doesn't even make sense. Anyways I am having a tough time with it. I have sketched out each of the 4 I have done atleast 5 times before doing it on the watercolor paper. The first time I would sketch it just looked really clean and like a sketch and then I would try to scribble it up and it looked like a good sketch scribbled over. Then I would do too much uncontrolled scribble on the next, and then I basically would just keep working the form a couple more times before doing it the last time. I added some touches of watercolor to a few. These still look too clean to me if you can believe that. They are too distinct, but it is a start. I hope to further some ideas. Here are the sketches.

Another wine bottle painting finished

16"x20" oil on panel.

Wine oil painting impressionism 2

Spooner's Cove oil painting. Montana de Oro

16"x20" oil on stretched canvas.

Pismo beach sunset daily oil painting

Tonight I painted a sunset at pismo beach. It measures 16"x20" oil on stretched canvas Sorry for the light reflection down the center of the sky. Couldn't seem to avoid it.